Reflecting on 2021

 Hi Guys 😉😀

I know it seems like forever since I've been away, definitely not from writing to myself but writing to you all. I'm deeply sorry about that cos' you guys deserve nothing but the best.

Omo, things don Sup oh! through it all I'm grateful to God and to everyone of you who keeps checking up and asking for more on this blogging thing, ah!, una motivate me pass. I will never take any of your concerns/care for granted. I didn't get lazy or out of content, just that the blog served it's purpose for me already so I thought it a good time to ignore all this while but since a number of you are asking for more consistent updates, I've decided to share a reflection on what this year 2021 was and has been for me and many more to come in due time, God willing. So for now, ride with me guys!

January!!!... Have you ever really had your own plans at speculated time of expectation to fruition? That numb, exciting and optimistic feeling is quite relative I suppose. I was happy and expectant for the new year but worry and anxiety took the best of me. January ended in a flash for me contrary to the usual belief/myth of how long January usually is, well not that of 2021 for me. 

February, my favourite month came and I was already losing my mind, if not any other thing to recall, I remembered crying, nagging and questioning God, it was a crazy place I don't want to go back to or give too much details about. When I say it's "crazy", trust that I wish for a more suitable word to quantify that. When life hits you, it does really hard 😪 and leaves you hopeless.

By March, I released my first single ever which happens to be my greatest fit in the 1st quarter of the year, I was happy and grateful for the reception cos' I had doubts but you guys cleared it all and made me believe even more. Before, in that time and till date, I've written quite a number of songs I can't wait to share with you. 

After the release of my song, I was offline for a couple of days at different interval, I had some friends reach out, but I made it known it was intentional and that I needed some time off the Internet. I remembered a statement one of them made, he said "we can't always be available", that struck me ever since and has been my watchword for the greater part of the year, truly one cannot always be available, cuts across many other spheres of life too. In actual truth, my being offline wasn't intentional, c'mon I love surfing the net like every young folks out there. I couldn't afford a subscription, no matter how little. At a point, I went from borrowing to subscribe, pay back and then borrow again. Notwithstanding, my predicament as of then takes nothing away from the fact that there is a serenity that comes with being offline for a while and for a good cause. It was a whole lot, my whole life was in stagnation, I had my doubts but somehow got myself up and get going, that was really a miracle. 

One thing that was certain is that, I'd always come to my WhatsApp status, share about some new music, Maverick City was the top of my list, I'd rant about Chelsea and banter other teams, share funny memes like life is sweet and all rosy on the façade but reverse was the case on the inside. Those were my hiding place and distraction from reality. Not to forget that I put them all into song all waiting to be unleashed.

As the year unfolds, I wouldn't say I've had it all figured out but I'm way ahead of where it started from and makes 2022 even more promising. I'm not the "New year resolution" freak, I just continually live life to the fullest, doing what I love most, giving my best and trusting God the most.

There's a level of trust you'll attain in God that keeps you at rest, at peace and afloat that everything will be just fine as regards what life throws at you in the moment, that's the level of confidence I attained in 2021 and that's a major win I'm so grateful for. The body of work by Chandler Moore titled FEELINGS, speaks to my heart the most and helped scale through a lot of times. I got to realize I wasn't as strong as I've always thought and it's simply okay to not be okay, I am no superhuman neither am I immune to life challenges. Life happens to the best of us, I was vulnerable, got quite a number of things wrong, let my guard down, spoke harshly, unruly and fell out with some good pals but at the end of the day I'm just human after all. In all of these, the positive and one particular thing that stood out and still in check is that my intentions are intact, pure, crystal clear and sky blue.

I read quite a number of books in 2020 so I had high hopes for 2021, but I couldn't live up to it, my mind was really troubled and my faith was truly tested. My attention and concentration span was levelled down to zero, but I kept going even in the dark and uncertainty. Need I mention PGee's teachings, Brymo's songs and a few others I can't recall at the moment. I was indeed strengthened and equipped for what's ahead.

I had major wins this year and God was faithful. I'm excited about all that 2022 is bringing cos' I know better now and I'm coming all out for it with my full chest. And I suppose leave this single pringle life for una las las shaa, I don tire, I need somebody's daughter to rub minds with and share burdens with biko, someone that we'll encourage each other and get going through the thick and thin, 😆 🤣 sounds familiar? Look no further, my debut single FOR YOU says more. PS: This is not priority for me and I've never been in hurry not now or ever, I'm pretty certain that at the right and said time, things will fall in place.

Thanks to everyone of you who made 2021 as colourful as it is now, I owe you this and plenty more. Cheers to doing life with you and to greater heights. See y'all at the top! 

I will try my best to update this blog more or write to you often beyond just the blog. Thanks for your time as always.

Yours truly, p.k.a DeeVaL, indeed I AM A MIRACLE!